What you want is in the blood, Senators ([info]demonista) wrote,
@ 2007-05-15 15:05:00
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Current location:A chair
Current mood: ambivalent
Current music:PJ Harvey rules!!!!
Entry tags:poem, rad fem sex

Hey guys!!! I'm finally posting again, with a silly/little edited poem.

Mental hugs and kisses to whoever can guess what it's about. And knowing me, it ain't that hard to figure out.

This has been…

Commodified torn despised invaded hated bought bruised battered sold falsified cut mutilated sliced into shoved into snuffed out sad depressed hurt angry pleading

 …but sometimes, hopeful 

This can be, and sometimes actually is…

Loved honoured licked nuzzled caressed cherished respected tickled sucked snuggled seen as beautiful appreciated stroked rubbed hugged kissed vibrated wetted fondled petted spoken to pleasured pleased

Bleeding in joy pouncable engorged erect all-sensation hot slippy throbbingly purple wildly blue carmine tickled pink passionately red happy proud embracing joyous singing engulfing loving rubbing hugging nuzzling hungry eager pouncing


Also, I did something to myself yesterday that I didn't want to do, but for some stupid goddamn reason I did.

I used that phallic vibrator I have inside myself, and it hurt, then hurt less, then I stopped because I couldn't come and felt so outside of myself, then it hurt more again afterward. Ye-owies. It did feel pleasurable as well, but that had more to do with my lower labia being rubbed by it than the weird, painful feeling of the dildo/vibrator in me. It felt like things were being moved around that shouldn't have been. The way I described it when I was able to articulate it was, "I feel like I raped myself." And I guess I did, in a way. When I say I felt outside myself, I felt like I wasn't me, that I wasn't acting in my own interests. When doing it I was "Why am I doing this to myself" then thinking "Well, as it goes on, it hurts less."

 


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[info]nouveau_prole
2007-05-16 04:52 pm UTC (link)
Like I always say: you never know if you're going to like a thing until you try it. Put it down to experience Ms Dem; a bad experience maybe, but experience all the same.

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(Anonymous)
2007-10-28 04:34 am UTC (link)
Well, well, like most pedophiles it seems that you run and hide when confronted.

Someone (not me, though I wish I'd thought of it) has posted your flounce post on Feminist to your ED page. It contains your real name. It appears you're stupid as well as morally bankrupt. I hope someone phones up your family and employer and lets them know what a sick person you really are. Nice job hiding all your entries, by the way. Not that it matters, as multiple people still have backups in case we have to prove that you've viewed or read child porn.

http://www.encyclopediadramatica.com/Demonista

By the way, do honestly think anyone believes you were at a fucking women's shelter when you posted that? How many women's shelters have public internet access, and what kind of idiot spends their time posting internet drama while at one? You just lie over and over, and not even convincingly. Everyone's known your fake "transgender" identity was a total pile of bull from day one.

You're a shame to women and the human race.

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